Just a quick note to wish you a happy holiday. I’ve spent the past week feverishly wrapping gifts and baking cookies. Last night I made a cake that I certainly hope tastes as amazing as it looks.
It’s a burnt sugar bundt cake with rum caramel frosting, topped with burnt sugar shards, from the BAKED cookbook.
I’ve been keeping my anxiety at bay with medication, although I had a breakthrough panic attack at the grocery store yesterday, which was not pleasant. Managed to keep my shit together until I got to the car. I’m off work until after the New Year, and am hoping to get in some relaxation and have made some plans to catch up with some friends I haven’t seen in a while.
This past Friday I put on my skates for the first time in a while and skated in an open scrimmage. I wasn’t prepared for the amount of talent that showed up and was extremely intimidated. However, I held my own and — for someone that hadn’t played derby since late summer — I think I did okay. I made some screw-ups for sure, but I also felt the opposing jammer slam into my back several times, so I know my blocking is still up to par when I am working, listening and responding. My asthma still makes it difficult and my brain didn’t feel as sharp as it should have been. However, it felt like home and the next day I felt quite sad that I don’t play anymore.
Today is Christmas Eve and later I am headed to my folks to celebrate with family friends — lots of fattening food and spirits. I’m psyched with all the gifts I chose this year and hope everyone is happy with them.
Thank you to all of you, once again, for being my rocks this year, my steadfast support and cheerleaders. Although I don’t blog as much as I used to, we’re all still a weird little family here at freakgirl.com, and I wish you all a wonderful 2013.