So, tomorrow I “graduate” from the intensive outpatient therapy program I’ve been in since the summer. I sure don’t feel “normal,” whatever THAT is, but I sure as hell feel a whole lot different than I did a few months ago. I have more coping skills, my meds have leveled me out, and I don’t feel so overwhelmingly crushed anymore. I still have good days and very bad days, but the good ones are outweighing the bad ones. Here’s hoping I never have to go through this nightmare again. Thank you for being there for me. I love all of you.
The “Stuff You Should Know” podcast is in the iTunes Top 10 Podcasts of 2010! Yay! Well-deserved.
This year I bought myself a Christmas gift. Not jewelry or new skates or a new coat — I treated myself to a new tattoo. I wanted to get an old boring one covered up, so I met with an artist who’s inked some of my derby girls. We chose flowers because they work nicely as coverups, and because I wanted to add some beauty to my body and my life after an admittedly wretched past year or so. The flowers are tropical, and remind me of my sister, and nieces when they were babies in Key West. Plus it’s gonna look so rad on the flat track.
I’m so happy with it. As the artist did the work — Kristen, I totally recommend her — we chatted about life. She said to me that she thought it was awesome that I am doing something nice for myself, and that this ink will mark the end of one bad part of my life and accompany me into the next, better chapter. I agree. Would you like to see it?
I was discharged from the hospital yesterday. The infection is completely under control, but I am still having headaches. It may be a while before I start posting again; I’m sorry. I’m completely overwhelmed with two weeks of details and bills. Feeling pretty down.
We’ve got friends in high places now. Congrats, Dave!