Blarg
WARNING: WHINING AHEAD.
I have felt like crap all week. At first I thought I was coming down with something, but I’m starting to think it’s just a manifestation of stress and unhappiness. Which blows. I’ve had a rough few days, and when I get emotionally stressed out, it tends to affect me physically. I’m trying to finish out this last session of boot camp, and every day this week has been a struggle. Today I finally had a good workout. I felt comfortable in the group, I did well and I even cracked a few jokes. But at the end of the session (as has happened the past three days in a row) I got hit with incredibly awful stomach cramps. Even right now, I still feel kind of yuck.
I’m hoping this passes soon. I feel very unsettled, itchy in my own skin, constantly walking around feeling like something is unfinished. You don’t have to be a psychologist to figure it out, obviously. I’m trying to work through it, but it’s wearing me down. Like I’ve said before, I don’t care to bog down this blog with a ton of emotional crap. I find that shit self-serving and manipulative. But I just wanted to let you all know where my head is lately. Thanks for listening. :)
At the end of our workout this morning, I had a brief conversation w/our trainer about everything. As I turned to leave, she said, “Debbie. Don’t let it get you.” Those words are the ones I intend to remember. Don’t let it get you.
And if anyone has any advice about the exercise/stomach cramps, please comment!
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October 7th, 2009 - 10:20
Are you eating before you work out or are you waiting until after? I don’t know, maybe do the opposite of what you are doing already. I know you are going at the crack ass of dawn, but maybe a little something in your belly, a granola bar or something, will help with the stomach cramps.
Blarg indeed.
October 7th, 2009 - 10:33
On Monday, when the cramps were bad enough to make me clammy and faint, I hadn’t had anything. Usually I have a spoonful of peanut butter before I leave the house, which I did have yesterday and today. My trainer suggested mixing a little Gatorade into my water. I may try that.
October 7th, 2009 - 11:23
I have good luck with bananas before a workout. I’ll sometimes do banana + granola + yogurt before pilates in the morning.
October 7th, 2009 - 11:32
Ugh, I can’t bear the thought of eating that much at 5:30am. Maybe tomorrow I’ll eat a banana on the way to class, though.
October 7th, 2009 - 11:35
Be sure to turn it into ice cream first.
October 7th, 2009 - 11:59
Ha!
October 7th, 2009 - 18:19
You should definitely be eating something with carbs before working out. It doesn’t have to be much, but empty/near empty stomach is a recipe for exercise-related sick. Trust me, I learned this the hard way — lying on my back in the gym like a lox, thinking I was having a heart attack. A granola bar, a banana, a half of a bagel, even a breakfast shake should take care of it. And don’t forget protein after the workout, to help your muscles rebuild.
As for the stress/emotional issues, unfortunately, I have no real advice beyond reminding you that you’ve suffered a loss every bit as real and devastating as a death. I think you just have to go through it, feel all those negative feelings, and hang on to the knowledge that, like any form of mourning, you will get through it and come out the other side. Never forget that you have lots of friends who love you and will hear you out anytime you need to vent, bitch, moan, or cry. We’re here for you — use us.
October 7th, 2009 - 18:23
Tomorrow I will try the banana (dirty) and then some peanut butter when I get home. Breakfast accomplished.
GC, your words made me cry (a good cry). Thanks :) I will repay you by spoiling your kid rotten this weekend.
October 7th, 2009 - 23:38
Hey there – I basically would like to reiterate everything our Greater Czarina said.
You have to eat something before boot camp. Bananas (if you can stomach them – I never could) are ideal, or a granola bar. I completly understand not wanting to eat that early, but it is a must.
And the emotional stuff. Well, as she said, it is akin to death and you have to go through the stages of mourning. It sucks, but it is the reality. But know that all of us – those who you know in the day to day world, those who you know only in the ethernet and those of us who live in the inbetween are here, to listen to you do all the things GC said. We love you my dear.
October 8th, 2009 - 10:42
The only way to get past it is to go through it.
You’ve suffered an enormous loss. The grief is enormous. You will doubt you can bear it. You will fight grieving, and you will lose – it has to come out eventually.
So my best advice is to be kind to yourself. If you cry, it’s because you need to cry. You will stop one day. If you have a shitty workout, it’s because you are not quite feeling yourself. You will feel good again one day. If you have a good day then a bad day, that’s not a setback. It’s just what it is. A process, that is painful, but one day will end.
October 8th, 2009 - 11:16
Thanks, all.